Sigh

As I sit here alone on another Saturday night, eating dinner and ice cream with Netflix, I just have to wonder.

Wonder where’s the balance of I know the Lord is a GOOD GOOD father, and loves to delight us and  gives us the desires of our hearts , and the other side of the coin of no matter how much we may want something it  may or may not be His best for us.

In this particular situation I’m thinking about, I trust Him but the not knowing is driving me crazy.

I also wonder why/ how  the church has been so slack in caring for the singles?
Why not invite us to a dinner at home or out occasionally so we don’t eat alone?
Why not include us in game nights and etc?

After working all day, plus doing all the grocery shopping, cooking annnnd cleaning and trying to keep up on housework, car maintenance, bills, health, etc ... I find myself too exhausted to try to make plans with others that fall through. Or continuously make the effort to plan stuff.

I’ve came to a point where I’ve stopped chasing people and realized they have multiple ways to contact me. (Hello, social media ... they can fb message me, text me, snap me, call me, instagram message me, email me... etc...). Putting forth (seemingly ALL)  the effort to initiate hanging out got exhausting.

But coming home to an empty house every night and not having anyone to process with or just play games with to decompress or not remembering the last hug you got is a different exhaustion.



~ME~

So, the only thing keeping me hanging on is that I've committed. I've given my word . I'm not one to go back on my word. "Let your yeas be yeas..." Seriously though, in all honesty I'm not sure I would stick around if it wasn't for committing & the sense of responsibility of follow through. 


~ME~

To VLOG or not to VLOG?

Give me a topic and I'll VLOG about it! What's VLOG? A blog post, but in VIDEO form ! :)

Newness

Hello!! I was told I "never" post anymore. Mainly bc I didn't know anyone read this!

So...didn't make it to the wedding ! I was really bummed! However, I DID get to cook for my Pastor! It went really well ! I cant wait to have her over again! I made my mamas recipe of "zesty chicken and rice" and brownies! I recently was given a cake ball machine and love it! I used it last night and had wonderful cake balls to take to the ladies luncheon today ! Next time I'll get pics!

Work is going crazy , I'm training the management ! Most are quick learners and hard workers! Its interesting to be in a position to train the superiors , with training having an aspect of telling the trainee they are wrong and messing up.
I've never been one to speak up to authorities, It was drilled into me as a chid to just submit ... Even if I didn't wanna or I was in the right! ( oh, I've been punished for stuff I didn't do ... And not punished for stuff I should have been!)
It's interesting as I'm being trained in the Spiritual things, the Father put me in a earthly circumstance where I HAVE to speak out to these people and say "hey, no! That's not right! " Or " why did you do this that way?" " I showed you how to do this last week..."

I'm learning boldness and learning how to say things firmly yet nicely. Apparently , my tone has been a issue in the past. I've also learned so much about the Lords grace when I have to remind them that I answered their question the previous day!

How much more Grace does He give each one of us daily? We forget the answers are already in the 66 book love letter He wrote us! (Thanks, Lecrae for that line!)

I'm also learning that they need encouragement . Transition is hard… on everyone. Imagine being thrown into being In charge of a business ... And knowing nothing about it! Also reminding me to encourage my Pastors !

I'm trying to find balance right now in my budget, and time! Rest vs cleaning / rest vs social / etc! Thankful He provides direction and brings forth all truth!

Any way... Sorry for rambling, but hey! You have a post!

Cooking 101

so....ask and you SHALL receive...I've been given the opportunities to learn 2 new styles of cooking in the near future!

A) my friend Christa is getting married! She's having a Kosher Jewish Potluck Reception...so,I've gotta research  a Kosher dish I can make!...and what all that entails...I'm clueless beyond a very few basics!

B) my pastor ,whom I've been wanting to invite over for dinner since I moved into my new place, has recently gone to a Gluten-free lifestyle...so another chance to expand my horizons!

I'm excited to learn what these two very different culinary styles have to offer!

any ideas/tips/etc are welcome! any one do Gluten free or Kosher???!

The best leaders know how to follow...

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Getting excited for my craft night housewarming! Planning and dreaming ...